It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to…

Mental Health Diaries- Since I haven’t written one of these in a while, why not on my birthday! Doesn’t that sound like fun? Wow, it’s here! I am 31. I can’t believe how fast this year went by. 30 felt like such a big deal, so this feels kinda- meh. Plus, I usually hate my birthday […]

The day before my mother’s murder, then and now.

June 15, 2006 I woke up, got dressed. I think I wore a blue sparkly tank top from Target with a white skirt. I went to my cousin’s middle school graduation. My cousin’s and I were super close at that time, they were always over at my house and I used to take my little […]

My Astrology Reading + a GIVEAWAY, yay!

I’ve been interested in astrology for a very long time. Mostly just me reading my weekly horoscope, looking up zodiac compatibility, or laughing over my typical Leo traits. When I started seeing people talking about their birth charts and moon/sun/rising signs (seems like it’s happening more and more these days, or maybe I’m just starting […]

Love in Cemeteries

Last night I was crying before bed. I start crying about one thing, and then move to the next, and then eventually land at my mom’s murder. Not every time, but most of the time I end up there. The saddest story of my life. So there I was, crying and comforting myself in the […]

EMDR: “I did the best I could”

*Content Warning: PTSD, homicide, trauma* My first EMDR session: The memory we are working with today is the most terrifying memory I have from the night of my mom’s murder/my attempted murder, it is the moment the stranger in my house enters my mother’s room where we were both at. My therapist asked me a […]