EMDR: “I did the best I could”

*Content Warning: PTSD, homicide, trauma* My first EMDR session: The memory we are working with today is the most terrifying memory I have from the night of my mom’s murder/my attempted murder, it is the moment the stranger in my house enters my mother’s room where we were both at. My therapist asked me a […]

Mental Health Diaries: PTSD & meeting myself where I left off

The first few years after my mom’s murder I call ‘blackout years’, I don’t remember too many details about life at that time. My only goal was to survive. I completed my first year of college right before her death, so naturally, I tried carrying on with school and other things 18-year old’s do. The […]

Mental Health Diaries: Safe Spaces

Safe Spaces Part 1: They don’t exist Content Warning: trauma, murder, vivid descriptions of mental health/illness, suicidal ideation I witnessed my mothers murder in 2006. I was also stabbed during the break-in. It was the worst night of my life, as you could have guessed. This one night, one event, one hour of my life, changed […]

The Never-Ending Healing Work

{CW: Rape, Murder, Trauma} Last Monday I was talking to my sex coach as I do each week. We were talking about my masturbation and sex issues that we have been working on. I kept saying “Penetration hurts me”… but I know that it doesn’t (There are several reasons it might hurt folks, I am […]

Clarity & Intention- Hello 2018

What better way to ring in the New Year & release my blog than with some good old clarity and intention setting. Last year was rough for pretty much everyone I know, but even despite the chaos, there were plenty of learning and growing moments that I am {mostly} thankful for. I am answering the […]