PTSD & My Mom’s 49th bday – written 3 years ago

I once had someone tell me that I am afraid of healing. I’m afraid of treating my depression and dealing with my loss because I think that it’s what connects me to my mother. That may very well have been true for a long while, but not anymore.   Continue reading at:

Finally Settled

We are finally settled in Baltimore. Our bedroom set was delivered, just waiting for another dresser and nightstand. My office is functioning and I have all my stuff around me. It feels like me. It feels like home. When we’ve visited here in the past I have always  loved it, I just really missed my […]

20 min stream of consciousness: the tugging

this one really gutted me and my memory is so bad, it scares me. But I really wanted to share it in all of its unedited glory. —- they cut my clothes off but i’m not embarrassed or afraid. it’s like i’m going to die anyway so what’s left to lose. i’m actually kind of […]