I walked into 2020 like an innocent, angel baby. I had no idea what was in store for me this year, I mean really, who did? 2019 was a huge year of transformation, and I can’t say 2020 was any different. In January of 2020 my partner had just got out of sober living and […]
If you’ve ever been on any of my patreons in the last 5 years, you’ve seen plenty of love letters to the car. And this time is no different. I get massive anxiety being in a moving vehicle, but love being in a parked car alone. It all goes back to PTSD. Once someone broke […]
* i didn’t used to be able to dream about it without being horrified, then slowly i started to dream about being in her room and it’s dark and gloomy and dusty & that i’m helping her clean it up, then it kept getting more and more ‘normal’ looking and now, like this morning, it […]
I’ve said this before, but I think this is the real issue with most things that are violent that I see on the news and in documentaries/movies/TV I no longer have the option of filtering out these scary horrific things in the world. I used to think “These things happen to other people” and feel […]
I finally wrote a thing I liked today! —- I had to come to terms with my past. The things I did in my blackout years. The disrespect and disregard I had for myself, my body, and my life. Learning to forgive myself took a huge burden off of me. A weight lifted from my […]