Over the last 16 years since my mom’s murder I’ve dealt with grief in many ways. First not at all, then kicking and screaming because I didn’t want to, then to a place of acceptance that I am in fact grieving, and will be for the rest of my life. It’s still not always easy, but it’s definitely been a lot easier on me lately.
One of the ways I deal with my grief currently is by making time for it. My favorite time to do this is before bed or early in the morning when I first wake up. I’ve found that if I don’t make the time for it, it will come out at the most inopportune times. I feel the nudge inside my heart that tells me it’s coming, so I’ll put on songs I know will make me cry. I will sit in the sadness and let it run its course. I’ll allow myself to feel sorry for myself and the huge loss I’ve endured, at least while the music is on. Sometimes I’ll put the song on repeat so I can really let it all out. Once I’ve let enough out for the day, I’ll be done, and back to my normal routine (until the grief comes knocking again. It never stays away too long! Especially as we enter the dreaded Mother’s Day, which I refuse to address this year!).
The other thing that’s working for me right now is writing it out. I have a beautiful journal for my morning pages. What I love about morning pages is that it’s free -writing, (which is also scary for me! It’s getting easier the more I do it!) so no worries about grammar, spelling, or even making sense. Just letting everything out without judgment or worry of who will see it. This is a safe way for me to express all of my feelings about grief, especially the ugly feelings I wouldn’t want to say out loud to anyone.
Bonus! Two of my favorite songs to cry to:
Somewhere Out There by Linda Ronstadt and James Ingram
In My Life by Wallis Bird
Maybe I’ll work on a playlist for next month’s Newsletter! Stay tuned..
What I’m working on:
I participated in #CampNanoWriMo last month, and while my goal was 20,000 words, I only got to 12,685. That’s okay! I have a lot of patreon content that I’ve yet to share, so that’s exciting. I’ve been sharing a lot of other things on patreon, including a weekly #TarotTuesday 1 card pull for everyone who asks a question for the tarot.
I’m just writing, planning, journaling, and listening to music as usual. I’m also trying to balance out my work time with fun time, so I splurged on Disney+ and Hbo Max to watch more TV. I’m back to reading before bed which makes me SO happy. Reading and TV inspire me to write, and helps me tap into my own creativity. I’ve been making lots of TV and book lists to be sure I get to everything I want to get to soon.
I’m watching Little People Big World, all the old Disney movies, and Julia. I’m reading lots of witchy books and books about YouTube since I’m planning on returning one of these days. You can subscribe here.
What are you watching, reading, and listening to? Reply and let me know!
Last thing I’m working on and SUPER excited about is a Facebook Giveaway! I’m having so much fun posting in my Facebook Group, The Joy Coven. As a way to say thank you to my active members I’ll be doing a giveaway this month of some of my favorite things: A happy planner, some of my favorite stones, some chime candles, washi tape, and a few other little tiny witchy things that I find. Come hang out with us in the Joy Coven and you can enter for the giveaway when it’s ready!
Thanks for reading, and I’ll see you next month!